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| After MKA, hectic day.
Too much of a gloomy day nowadays.
Cryings heard everyday. People are mourning and grieving.
Sad situation, hence decided to go for a chillout. Cola Club. 
Time to release stress. Exam like no exam. no time to study anymore. I know I will regret it. I know it. 
Bottoms Up 
So, in conclusion, yesterday went back around 3am. Sigh. Sleepy. | | |
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It's too sudden. It's too shocked. Why? But Why?
It's as if it's happening too me.
It's because we're too close.
From day one, till today. till now. till this very moment.
2095 days.
you tell me. why so sudden. how could this happen?
it's worst than 2012 for me. i really do wish everything would be the same again.
why must we move on, when the past has great and beautiful memories.
i'm really scared to look in the future. i don't like it.
i want the past. i want to go back. please.
now. nobody is happy.
whats the value of the piece of paper that I've kept and treasure so long in my secret compartment.
what does it even represent now?
was it suppose to end like this?
what is god's intention of ending everything?
why everything has to come to an end?
why even begin when we know that it's gonna end
friendship, relationship, death, life,
someone is right.
"Nothing Last's Forever...."
If everything has to come to an end, why not just end it now.
Once and for all.
and I could even choose the way to die.
when to die
how to die
who to be beside when i die
which way to die
what to die for
why should i die
Every beginning ALWAYS has an ending.
no doubt. people always say. move on. you have a better future.
sigh. sometimes. somethings. we. you. I. just don't understand. this. bullshit. anymore.
P.s- Sorry. i really put hope in this paper. I'll make it up to you tomorrow =)
if there is a LIKE button. I'm sure you guys will LIKE this post.
I'm fine guys. No, i didn't study till i gone crazy.
It's just that....
sometimes. somethings. we. you. I. just don't understand. this. bullshit. anymore.
every. beginning. ALWAYS. TRULY. REALLY. BULLSHIT. DUHHHH. GOT. has . an. ending.
2112 days. 50 688 hours. 3, 041, 280minutes. 182, 476, 800 seconds.
Maybe one day it will be okay again.
That's all I want.
I don't care what it takes.
I just want to be okay again.
friendship. haihz. relationship. haihz. family. haihz.
haihz. haihz. haihz. haihz. haihz. haihz. haihz. haihz.
Anyone wants to go for a beer...?? | | |
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Exams is in 30 over hours, but I just can't seem to focus.
This semester is running so fast, can't it just wait. Please...?
Please wait...? Time is running out...
Just graduated from:
How to be EMO 1001
How to be Happy 2001
How to be Lazy 3001
How to Shake Leg at home 4001.
Now studying for:
FaceBook 9001
Blogging 2024
Sexing 0126
Haihz. I haven study. Especially the damn finance paper.
So what you want me to do...?
No money to go holiday ah. LoL!
Salary - SLR - Miscellaneous - Starbucks + Weekly Allowance Savings (Rm10) = (- 101.23)
Someone kill me. Please. LOL
A New Year is coming. A new resolution list needs to be done.
But always failed to maintain the list.
#1 - Lose that ugly spare tyre = FAIL
This Year. Brand New. Brand Mature.
#1- Lose virginity before 2012 (Janice, 2009)
#2 - Lose that ugly spare tyre
#3- Date a rich man
#4- Be ever cuter ....
Off to sleep now, exam is in.. 30 smtg hours!
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| It's hitting me back again.
I'm thinking about our beautifully imperfect friendship ...
Sigh.
Can't believe i could create something so meaningful,
that i could even re-cried again after watching it.
Sigh. When i'm gonna stop sigh-ing...??
"Life is not for you to haiz..."
我很想跟你们说 “我真的很想念你们。我要回到過去。可是，不可能的。
生活吮…
但是我们只必须露出与它…
p.s- been dreaming/ thinking of him for the past few days. why so random?
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There are so many stuffs I wanted to say. But i just can't.
It's so suffering. Hating my life right now.
Kinda regret.
Don't even have that kind of freedom anymore.
Felt so 'controlled' ... Felt like dying...
Seriously, i'm not happy anymore.
You can see it in my eyes.
When la happiness gonna come in..?
Everyday is like waiting for that 'day' to happen.
What 'day' is it...?
Something special?
What am i waiting for actually..?
What am i living for actually...?
What am i going through actually...?
This semester exam is just not normal.
It's like, i don't even bother about it.
No more staybacks till 10pm at the Library.
Maybe its because there is nothing to look forward after exams.
I know, for me, its work after exams.
Mondays till Saturdays. OT and Weekends had to work too.
Not only that, might consider working at EcoParadise.
Two jobs maybe...?
Can i go for a holiday getaway please...?
I'm so looking forward for a Hong Kong trip =(
Backpacking maybe...?
Go with the friends i love the most...?
It's gonna be great. But it'll never happen.
Don't ever tell me nothing is impossible,
because i know that it would never happen.
Don't wanna go 'there',
because i don't wanna replace my memories
with another new chapter.
It's not about the money,
It's about whom your going with...
Anyway, it's 4am. Can't study. No fuck with Market Analysis.
and i'm hungry.
So, emo-ing at 4am doesn't seems to be a good idea,
craving for Ramly Burger, but got no teeth to eat.
If the doc gonna slice my gums and stitch and leave a scar there,
probably it won't hurt as much as the scar in my heart deep down...
P.S - i'm glad you replied me <3 =) | | |
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